Wednesday, October 14, 2009

X Factor Replay

How quickly things can change. Sometimes I think I'm going crazy. Other times I think it is outside forces that make me think I am crazy. He and I are ending AGAIN. And I am heartbroken AGAIN. Why do we torture each other like this? Our love is like a battle. Lauryn really knew what she was talking about. I really want him to let go. For real this time.

6 comments:

Anonymous said...

X Factor is on my favorite song and video list.

"...and when I try to walk away, you hurt yourself to make me stay, this is crazy"

You are worthy of good love. Now leave yourself open to receiving it. Going backwards is like repeating the same mistakes over and over again.

Jewelry Rockstar said...

Yes, I can totally relate to long break ups. I broke up with a guy for about 6 years. Some would say we were together off and on for that length of time, but really we were breaking up for 6 years. One good year, 6 years breaking up.

Keep your head up.

Breath of Light said...

c2c thank you for the encouragement. I know I'm worthy. I haven't been acting like it.

JR, that's exactly what it feels like!

Unknown said...

wow @ this idea of long breakups. that's something i'd never considered but definitely think i can relate to with past experiences.

i remember reading about it the last time y'all broke up and taking note of how at peace you seemed with it all. i wish you that same sense of peace and a clear mind.

Breath of Light said...

Yes indeed Fly tie. I was at peace then and am at peace now with the decision. My unease comes when I am trying to hold on to something for the sake of someone else. In my heart I think he and I would make amazing friends. But since he does not see things this way, I know I need to just let it go.

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