Friday, June 27, 2008

Midsummer Night’s Dream

Last night after the lil one was put to bed my King and I took a stroll around the neighborhood. We walked around the block as the sun was setting admiring the beautiful houses of North Minneapolis. The Northside gets a bad rep. Our neighborhood is lovely, safe and quite beautiful. Each street has a canopy of trees shielding the pavement from the sun and keeping the cool air circulating. We have lovely maple trees in our yard. And colorful flowers where an old tree stump use to reside. We looked at the other houses and yards and marveled at the turn of the century architecture surrounded by grass. There was one home that perfumed the air with fresh greenery and made me want to lay in the yard and watch the stars. The Old Highland neighborhood is perfect for us right now.

It was a hot night. We are trying to hold out as long as we can before turning on the ACs. We have windows on all sides of the duplex apartment and trees strategically shading most of them. So I figure if we have the fans placed just right we can get nice cross winds to cool us down, especially at night. Once the cool breeze hit me I was fast asleep. It’s hard for me to sleep comfortably in hot and humid weather. And Minnesota summers customarily are muggy. My afro loves it, my thighs, not so much. lol. I usually sleep in nothing more than my skin so every bead of sweat is evaporated by the fan pushing around warm air. I fool myself into thinking that the faster the air is dispersed the cooler it feels.

I woke up in the middle of the night to kisses from my Kingman. Each kiss was a raindrop across my back politely signaling me wake up. I obliged. And he made love to me as the moon peeked into the bedroom window. Moments like that make summer nights a pleasure.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I Don't Want to Wait in Vain

I was reading a blog by a sista on YMIB and she was pouring out her soul and sharing a situation with her and her partner of 5 years. She said something in one of her comments that struck me so deeply. To sum it up my interpretation of what she said: she’s spent all these years waiting for this man and helping him become a better person and achieve his life goals while she’s put her own off. And now she’s finding herself resenting him. And this is how I feel many times in my current relationship. Not so much that I’ve put off my dreams for him all this time, but the culmination of this relationship and previous ones where I’ve been there for my man to show my commitment to him bettering himself and not really feeling it in return. While my current Kingman says he fully supports whatever it is I want to do, I’ve found that my goals still take the back seat in the relationship because the details of his life take priority more than mine. So I’ve found myself more actively pursuing my dreams on my own rather than the strong concerted effort we both put toward his.

While I feel I’ve grown as a person, as a Goddess, I do believe that I haven’t been putting as much energy into the life path that I want for myself as I could have been. I mean this is MY destiny right? That is something I'm changing. I know that my life will move in the direction of my most dominant thoughts. So my thoughts are on growth, prosperity in every part of my life, and good health.

On the creative front I've finished a cute lil baby set. A sista friend of mine from waaay back in the clubbing days has been blessed with a pregnancy. The baby shower is coming up and I had it on my heart to create something rather than buy something ready made. I used this lovely wool yarn that's so soft on the skin. This set was certainly made with love. I pray the baby girl enjoys it.

I've also started a project for my mother. She wants me to sew 3 tunic style shirts to be used for praise dances. I've started two shirts already and I'm worried one of them may be too small. I'm still trying to work out some details but I'm very proud of myself for taking on this task. I plan to take some pictures of everything during the dances so stay tuned for that. Making the shirts has got me really itching to make myself a dress. There is some really lovely fabric at the fabric store. But I want to finish this project before starting anything else.

Work is going well. Why are my co workers being so nice to me now that I'm looking at other job opportunities? lol. Well they've always been great to be around. The other job opportunity is still in wait mode. I should be hearing from them this week. I'm so at peace with this now. Basically if the price is right, I'll take the new offer. Otherwise I'll continue my search.


Monday, June 16, 2008

Getting this Tag outta the way

I've been a huge fan of Neo Sew Mama since I stumbled across her blog a month or so ago. I spent a couple of hours reading EVERY post of hers. I was so inspired by her style, beauty and motherly sensibilities. She has some gorgeous babies who love tofu. Whew lawdy I could never get with the tofu, even as a vegetarian! A couple posts ago she commented that she wanted to tag me with a What's In Your Fridge tag:

Here are the rules:

  1. Post the rules before the pictures/descriptions.
  2. Take a few shots of what's hiding in your fridge..freezer...pantry...cupboards. The more the better.
  3. You can either simply just include the pictures or even better give some description of what's in there...your favorites...where you (or how not) it's organized...and/or whatever else you want to include. The more info the better...yes...I like details!
  4. NO tidying up! If you want to turn around things so you can see the labels thats fine...but no re-arranging or cleaning things up. The whole point is to see things the way they actually are...naturally. If there is nothing in your fridge show that... Just keep it real!
  5. Keep the tag going. Pick 7 other bloggers to join in on the fun and tag them by including their names after your post and by leaving a comment on their blog letting them know they have been tagged. I think it would also be great if you would let the person who tagged you know once you have posted your pictures.

DUNN DUNN DUUUUNNNNN!!! Here is my fridge. I really don't like the hanging of stuff up with magnets because they ALWAYS fall off. But my lil Prince insists.

Yeah boyeeee! Check out that top shelf action. Complete with left over corn bread muffins, apple juice, orange juice, vegetable broth and left over turnip greens disguised as whipped cream. I see you garlic and soy milk peeking from the back. I loves you too!
Those next two shelves are interesting... More left overs, shredded cheese that I don't remember WHY I even bought it, some eggs, BEEF BRATS that my Kingman insisted I buy. He just asked me if I wanted the last one and my stomach turned. Twice. No thanks babe, that's all you!
Bottom shelf that typically houses my lil Princes lunch "stuff", salad "stuff" and my beloved spinach. MMMM juicey grapes are always good!

The crisper areas keep those bell peppers and onions crisp? As well as two lonely tomatoes.

The freezer is kinda sad. It's usually filled with more greens than that. lol. We got the fish sticks action, some chicken hiding under the forbidden ice cream. Get up on that pizza yall and then the cheapest waffles I could find.
Waaaay too much sweet corn. I know, I know.
Vitamins, oats and grits. Cane sugar used once ever. I'll give it another month before I throw it away.

Frank's Red Hot hot sauce is the best! The smell of salt makes my stomach convulse after the salt water flush incident. bleck! No black kitchen is complete without some Lawry's.

We love the honey wheat pancakes and other obscure non perishables.My beloved fruit bowl. We love tea, therefore we love lemons. That pineapple is getting cut up tonight. That will be breakfast.

There you go! All done. That's not everything, but we have so many cabinets with random stuff in them I dare not waste all my blog space with pictures of it. I shall pass this on to anyone who would like to participate. Please drop me a comment letting me know if you post your pictures.

Monday, June 9, 2008

I made something pretty

And here I am second guessing myself. Not so much my abilities, but my desire to move in a certain direction.

I've been recently presented with a new job oppurtunity. I know that after the final interview this week they will offer me the job. I know this because I BELIEVE it. However, I'm not sure this is what I want. It's yet another step deeper into this "corporate america" thing. This new oppurtunity has the potential for more money, better training and other areas for advancement. Now I like the company I currently work for. It has great benefits, a great work environment and atmosphere, but I don't forsee any immediate opportunities for advancement. I've been in my current position for a little more than two years and I'm feeling as if I know this well enough to move on from it. It's no longer that IT thing for me. My spirit if urging me to try something different. A change of pace, if you will.

But I'm searching my soul to see if the new job with a different (larger, more corporate type) company is what I'm suppose to be moving toward. There are several unattractive factors about the new company. And several attractive things. I think it's about time for a pro versus con list. Because I'm feeling the clock wind down, this final interview is in a couple of days and I will need to make the decision really soon.

In less heavy news I've been keeping up with workouts several days a week. No set schedule but I push to get at least 3 days of workouts. Mondays I seem to get a workout in easy. And I try to get a workout in on one of the weekend days. That leaves me with 4 other days to choose from for my third workout. It's really not that hard and I feel good after EVERY workout. I haven't noticed any big changes in my weight or size. But I really can't be sure since I'm not weighing myself or measuring. Right now I want to continue to FEEL good about what I'm doing for my body. All that other stuff like pound droppage will come when it comes.

Oh, and I was tagged. I need to get batteries in my camera to complete the assignment. I hope to get that done next week. I was pleasantly surprised to get a comment from one of my favorite blogs tagging me, though unofficially. lol. So I'm much obliged.